Thursday, November 09, 2017

Work

Work can be great. You can love it, but you can hate it. Either way, we need it.
sometimes its not just a way of earning money, or doing what you love, sometimes, your life becomes your work, and work an escape from reality. No stressing over anything but work. No cleaning, no cooking, just work. And your mind kind of takes a break from everything else. So doing extra hours becomes just some extra time off from you.
and when you get home?
You feel lost.

Sunday, November 05, 2017

One in every two

Today is one of those days when everything feels harder
just eating kills any energy i had left
getting something done its an acomplishment in its own
something not basic? A big win
ive felt lost
everyday just passes by
i dont feel im accomplishing anything
im greatfull for work and class, i cant think of anything there, im completly distracted, and my head cant wander off
then, im empty
i stop being
im gone
forgoten
i just wait for the day to be over and the next begins
ive got one joy and i feel im failing them
so what kept me going, makes me wonder if there is something better for them?
could i find peopke to take care of them better than me?
can they love them as much as i do?
can they be happy without me?
im lost
i cant see the light
i cant find the road back home
i just go darker and darker